The Beginning of My Fall

When I had my first boyfriend was when I began to fall, the was touching and kissing but nothing else, he wanted to have sex with me but I said no. This is where the biggest struggling of life began. He cheated on me, I broke up with him and quickly moved on. I didnt have sex with my first four boyfriends. Then in 2011, I was very much in love with a guy I was in a relationship with, He kept asking me for sex but i kept sayng no, one day he asked and i said yes, but then said no at the last minute but he said it would be ok. It was one of the most painful experiences of my life, and i regret it, not just because it was sinful, but i felt used. A few months later he broke up with me, saying I wasnt the person he used to love, that i had changed. He was the one who had changed, He was no longer kind and caring, but rude, selfish and cold.